Mar 5th 2010
Picture Post!
jealousmoon:(via jennyvodka)
I’ve been living down here for almost half a year and I still haven’t found someone. It’s not the end of the world but I would like to express my feelings more often to the guys I like. For example, even though the guy I care about has a girlfriend and I talk to him everyday, I want to tell him how I feel. I’ve done it many times before and I feel so good after. But if I keep the feelings bottled in then I get stressed and I keep thinking about what he is going to say. Eventually I will tell him when the time is right and there aren’t a bunch of people staring at us in a classroom. It would be great dating him because he’s a great guy and he the only guy that i really wanted in a long time.
There are days in my life where I look in the mirror and I dislike everything I see. I have many things that I hate about myself including my nose, my skin, my stomach, and my hair. We cannot all be perfect and I think that God gave me flaws to show that imperfection is beautiful. Yes I believe in God. One day I want to look in the mirror and like everything I see without judging that one body part I hate.
Physically and mentally I am in pain. I don’t know why but for some reason I just want to hide in my room for the rest of the day and think of nothing. Yesterday it just hit me on how big this move has affected my life. Even if I am far from my best friends in New York, I am starting to mature on my own. Down here in Georgia I am become close with a lot of people but there are few that I begun to not trust. I cannot wait until the day I am able to get out this house but at the same time I want to be a kid forever.
it is just a blog for me to let out the things i want want to say that i never got to say in my day. hey that rhymes.
